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Muzil, a thinly veiled Michel Foucault, died of AIDS in 1984 while he and his doctors kept the diagnosis vague. Friends were left unsure what had killed him, and his family moved to control his papers and legacy.
Bill, a wealthy friend in the pharmaceutical business, repeatedly promises the narrator a place in a trial of an experimental AIDS vaccine. He then delays and deflects while the narrator's T4 count falls. This is the friend of the title, and his case shows how hope held out by a powerful ally becomes a form of cruelty when it is never delivered.
The narrator describes AIDS as a disease in stages, a long flight of steps that leads surely to death. Each step, marked by blood tests and falling T-cell counts, lets the patient rehearse dying while still able to observe and record it. Slow and certain decline turns death from an event into a stretch of time that can be inhabited, measured, and written.
To tell the truth about a friend's death and his own, the narrator must expose secrets the dead man guarded and the living would rather keep. Autofiction's changed names give only thin cover. The book presents this betrayal of privacy as the cost of bearing witness, and treats cruelty toward oneself and others as inseparable from honesty about the disease.