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For the first time she experiences desire and pleasure, and with them some sense of self. When she becomes pregnant and asks him to marry her, he agrees, then shoots her as she walks away through the street he controls.
When civil war shuts down the family, the neighborhood surveillance, and the rules of honor that police a woman's body, those controls briefly stop working and she can act on her own desire. The freedom is real, but it depends on the same chaos that makes killing routine. So the man who is the vehicle of her release is also the agent of violence, and any move to turn that freedom into social legitimacy, such as marriage or a child, brings back the logic that destroys her.
As a young girl, Zahra is taken along by her mother to meetings with her lover, which makes her both the cover for the affair and its witness, while her father beats her at home. A child used this way learns that her body is an instrument of other people's deceptions and a site of fear and shame. She carries that into adulthood as passivity, silence, and compulsive self-harm: Zahra picks at her skin and hides in bathrooms.
The novel moves between Zahra's own voice and the accounts of her uncle Hashem and her husband Majed. In their chapters the men explain her away as strange, mad, or ungrateful while revealing their own self-interest, including the uncle's advances toward her. Setting the self-account beside these outside accounts shows how a traumatized woman's behavior gets turned into a diagnosis of her. The men who helped cause her condition narrate it as her defect.