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Linacero recalls asking his estranged wife Cecilia to put on a white dress and walk the Rambla at night, as she had when they were young lovers, hoping to summon back the girl he once loved. She complies but is bewildered, and the staged repetition only shows that the earlier Cecilia no longer exists. The episode illustrates how trying to reproduce a remembered feeling by re-enacting its outward conditions confirms the loss instead of reversing it.
The narrator sets out to write a memoir but deliberately alternates real episodes with elaborately built fantasies, such as a log cabin in the snow that a girl from his adolescence enters at night. He treats the daydreams as more authentically his own than the facts, so the self-portrait comes to rest on what he imagines rather than what he did. The structure makes fantasy an equal and competing record of a life.
Each time Linacero tries to share his daydreams, whether with a prostitute or with a poet friend, the listener misreads them, mocks them, or reduces them to something ordinary. The book holds that the most private part of a person cannot survive translation into another's understanding, so disclosure deepens isolation instead of relieving it.
The narrator frames himself as 'a solitary man smoking somewhere in the city,' and his isolation is partly a posture of contempt toward others' hopes, politics, and sentimentality. Read this way, alienation is not only something done to a person. It is also a defense he cultivates, one that keeps him from being disappointed at the cost of any real connection.