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While a student at Yale Law School, Saks had a psychotic break: she climbed onto the library roof and talked about killing people. She was hospitalised and strapped to a bed for many hours, and during one admission she was also forced to take medication. She describes the restraint as terrifying and degrading rather than calming, which made her resist treatment and later informed her legal scholarship on mental health law.
Antipsychotics dampened Saks's psychotic episodes, but they did not remove the underlying illness or make her 'normal'. She tapered off her medication several times to prove she wasn't really ill, and each attempt led to relapse. She accepted indefinite medication only after concluding that the drugs were a condition of the life she wanted, not an admission of defeat.
Demanding, structured tasks gave her a stable centre when her thinking began to fragment, so continuing to work was part of how she managed schizophrenia. This challenges the assumption that people with serious mental illness must reduce ambition and responsibility in order to cope.
Saks describes psychosis mainly as the breakdown of the self that organises experience, rather than just as having false beliefs. Her boundaries blur, her thoughts crumble into rhyming and punning word-salad, and she feels she is 'melting'. Seen this way, the central harm of schizophrenia is losing the coherence that turns perceptions into one consistent point of view.