Lyutov kills a goose to belong
In "My First Goose," Lyutov is billeted with Cossacks who mock his spectacles and education. He tramples a goose, runs it through with a borrowed sabre, and orders his landlady to cook it; the Cossacks then make room for him at their pot. That night he dreams of women, and his 'heart, stained with bloodshed, grated and brimmed over,' so acceptance is paid for with an act of cruelty he cannot forgive himself for.