Croquet loss triggers a quarter-life collapse
At his 25th birthday party the unnamed narrator loses a croquet game to his older brother and is badly shaken by it, realizing he has no sense of what his life adds up to. He quits university, moves into his absent brother's flat, buys a children's hammer-and-peg toy, writes lists, befriends a small boy next door, and slowly rebuilds a working relationship with ordinary life. The novel is a concrete case of an existential crisis handled by retreating to childlike, low-stakes activity rather than by philosophical resolution.
